Self-absorption is a disease of temperament that assumes that what is personal to you will automatically be found personal and interesting for everyone else. It is the disease of an idle mind in search of entertainment, someone who has become the slave of the desire to be noticed at all costs. Such people appear to be giving to you, but actually their purpose is to take. They affect to have an interest in you, but at bottom, they are like second graders who cry, “ME ME, ME” at the top of their voices. This makes a mockery of any attempt at friendship with them.
It is a colossal mental error, a huge misjudgment, to think that the petty details of your life are going to be found interesting by others who have no knowledge of them. Such a person is clearly not able to do justice to others unless they fall into with their own views and preoccupations. In such people, their bloated egoism demands that strangers like us must hear their dreary recital of the petty and trivial stories in the hope of gaining our recognition and applause. We are commanded to be attentive to their anecdotes, yet the listener of them can’t picture the conduct of their subjects or characters nor are we able to conjure up the voices in their stories.
By now you are wondering what in the world is Richard ranting on about? I’ll explain.
We wife and I had first encountered a young daughter of a neighbor when we moved to Durham, North Carolina, seven years ago. We lived across the street from her family, and at night, a young girl and her girl friend would come over and ring our front door bell at 10:00 at night, and wait for the reaction. Sometimes the bell rang at midnight. We didn’t pay the much attention. They were young, impish kids after all.
We saw her grow up. We saw her body gain in grace, and her mind grew perceptive, curious and sharp. It was clear that she had a force of personality. She was direct, fearless, and had charm. We also soon learned that she was also shrewd and manipulative and a shade ruthless. One night, when she was a junior, she secretly hosted a house party for her friends where beer and wind and liquor was served and enjoyed while she pretended she was somewhere else. (Her mother had left her alone. )In other words, the girl, (we’ll call her Carol,) could be subtle and sly -- which are unnerving qualities if you are a parent.
Her parents divorced three years ago, and there was a mood of lingering bitterness among the parents and their children. I had become a friend of the father when, after I had suffered a stroke, when he built from scratch a ramp that allowed my wheel car to take me at the door of my house. I feel deeply grateful for it to this day.
When the parents divorced, my wife and I stood by both of them and gave what support we could to each of them. We were impartial. We kept our judgments in check. Carol, the daughter had two brothers who were also close to us. One took sides, the other was neutral. After the divorce, the mother became even more close friends with my wife and me, but we stayed in close touch with the father.. Over time, we found that some of the children got along with their dad, but Carol, the daughter, found it impossible. Yet as the initial bitterness ebbed away, last spring, her father, became the coach of her lacrosse team, leading them to their first victories in seven years. The two had become close.
In the meantime, we watched the daughter grow to be a lovely, attractive young woman. She had a will with hard metal in it. She was a tremendously hard worker. She was a lifeguard, a baby sitter, and when she got her driver’s license, she began a driving service to conveyed teenagers home after a party plus she ran errands. She was curious. She grasped what she sees, but, better yet, she feels what she sees. She liked it when I talked about foreign policy, and once she startled me by asking if she would like joining the CIA. I told her what it might require, a mastery of languages, a quick reading of people, a wide and deep knowledge of foreign cultures, mental agility, and so on. She seemed to take it all in.
The friendship between the families deepened. A genuine friendship take place when similar natures and drawn together as if by a magnet. That is what happened here. Just as two thugs recognize each other as if they were wearing a badge, the same thing happens with people who have good hearts. They are moved by a sympathy that cares deeply about what the other is undergoing. We felt that, and so did they.
All the while, Carol, grew and thrived. Carol grew into a person who was sincere, honest, trustworthy and virtuous. Once she got her driver’s license Carol used to drop in and see us, and our affection between us deepened rapidly. Finally, the mother and the father bestowed on us the honor of adopting us into their family. The parents of both had died at a very young age, and we were now the grandparents of their children. We were thrilled at their generosity. I had learned to love Carol as much as I did my own daughter.
Finally, the day came when she was to graduate from high school, a ceremony to congratulate her and her classmates for their ambition, their efforts and achievements. Her father generously offered to pick up my wife and me and drove us to the auditorium, Unfortunately, the father’s sister, Carol’s aunt, came as well.
Graduation
Carol belonged to a big class of about 350 students. When we arrived, the vast amphitheatre was almost empty. We wanted time to savor the memories associated with Carol and her parents. But no sooner had we settled, when the aunt, a seated in a row front of us, turned and starting talking non-stop to my wife and me. She had no interest in the coming event at all. She paid not the least attention to the people beginning to fill the auditorium. Instead, she unearthed from her purse a smart phone. Immediately, she slapped it open, and leaned backward from her row, clearly determined to show us all her treasures.
First of all, with the overhead lights, you could not really see anything clearly. But you didn’t have to. Instead, you are greeted with a photo of a distant relative who had a head and face, but neither my wife or I were given the story behind the photo, and the information monsoon going on, a trite sleeting of commonplaces, made it impossible \to realize who the people were. There were pictures of young kids, young people, old people, but my wife and I didn’t know any of them. It dawned on me that when you come across a person who simply wants to use you to listen to every trivial perception of theirs, you should flee them the way animals flee a forest fire. This person simply wanted us to be her sounding board. There was no sense of proportion or fitness, or appropriateness. There was no priority. no sense of hierarchy and no discernible order.
This loquacious stump of a woman exhibited no imagination, no sense of putting herself in her listener’s place; no consideration for her captives. Such a person doesn’t really care about the listener’s reaction. Self satisfied, they simply blather on and on and on and on, in order to empty their minds of every passing and vagrant thought. Even a tiny clue would set off a maelstrom of jabber: apparently, she has a relative named Jeff, but the great grandfather had a son named Jeff, and one aunt had named her daughter Jeff even though it was a male name, and one of her distant aunt’s cousins married a man named Jeff, a high school kid, who was killed in an auto accident.
At that point you start to wonder if we could perhaps engineer a little mishap for the speaker.
All the while, of course, as the huge stands began to fill, and the din grew deafening, and the band began to play uplifting and noble music like Henry Purcell. In reaction to the music, this, loud, fat woman simply got louder. “I got my husband because my father had a heart attack. I needed a car, and this guy at the filling station would take me to seem father a lot, and we had a few lunches and got married.”
There is nothing touching, nothing significant about this. There is no admiring description of the husband, there is no retailing of their affection and care for each other, there is no depiction of the gentle and delicate moments between them. Why, then, tell everyone within range, about this? What we wanted to know, was her reaction to her husband, or his reaction of her. Those questions would have acted to enliven the narrative, raise questions, and spur debate and conversation. But the blunt, shouted facts barred us from asking. We know nothing beyond the fact that she found a use for the filling station owner and married him.
She is, you see, entirely self centered, a person addicted to self-worship.
A mood builds at graduation, and by this point, the stands were three quarters full, and the infectious excitement, the sense of expectation, was building constantly, but the loud woman took no notice. My wife and I wanted our thoughts to be centered on Carol and her classmates, on our memories of her growing up, but we were stopped cold. The photos kept slapped down remorsessly. Who in the world wants to see what some stranger’s living room looks like at Christmas?
By now, the joy and pride of parents were mounting to a climax. Our hearts pounded. The music built the mood to a higher pitch, yet the seated fat lady, the self absorbed moron, didn’t feel it, didn’t observe it, and took no pleasure in it. She’s too busy showing ff photos of people that my wife and I had never met and which we weren’t interest in hearing about. Of course, by now, I was in a rage. I resented this trivial chit chat was being poured over my mind like used water from a bucket.
Then the climax came.
The minute the would-be graduates entered, there was a thrilling, earsplitting joyous roar, full of pride, love, approbation and endorsing support, and the loud aunt finally ceased. She turned to face the stage and began to take more photos. Meanwhile, Carol suddenly came in, carrying herself with grace and resolution, resplendent in her robes and cap, her face alight with joy, and Sharon, her mother, expressed overwhelming happiness and pride. and then later, at the after party, Carol expressed so much vivid love to my wife and I that we were borne aloft again, my soul so grateful that such a young, astute woman had come to love us both. That made that day truly glorious. And that is what I will remember and cherish.
A Final Note
I know some will think me too critical in writing this, but criticizing others can provide a pathway to the further reformation of yourself. When we criticize others for what they did or what they left undone, we should have a sufficient sense of justice or pride or even vanity, to want to avoid in your own case what offended you in them. Some people’s only value consists of prodding other people to vow not to be like them. Sometimes a person’s only value is to provide an example of what not to be.
One thing more. I believe that this epidemic of photo-taking is merely a way to dodge the effort of taking thought. Photo takers use photos as a kind of cue card, a way to create a desire to savor an experience by returning to it, but most don’t. It is a false premise. I have worked with great photographers, Allred Eisenstaedt at LIFE Magazine, whose most famous photo, taken during V- Day, showed "an exuberant American sailor kissing a nurse in a dancelike dip [that] summed up the euphoria many Americans felt as the war came to a close” (Wikipedia)
I also worked with Howard Bingham, Mohammad Ali’s personal photographer who watched my back at the Chicago convention of 1968. and worked with Howard to record civil rights struggle in south LA in the 70s. But their photos had a purpose; they were part of an effort to truthfully record an event. They chose, the omitted, the edited. The put petty efforts behind.
In any case, my wife and I wish Carol, our new granddaughter, the best of success.
.
Richard, this is a great story:
"I know some will think me too critical in writing this, but criticizing others can provide a pathway to the further reformation of yourself."
To be quite honest, as completely self-absorbed person, I felt discovered first. But then the narrative pulled me in. ;)
Beyond this full disclosure, I absolutely loved this:
"At that point you start to wonder if we could perhaps engineer a little mishap for the speaker."
In any case, the reader (taking me as example) understood perfectly well why the family, who thankfully overcame separation and thus must have learned to deal with whatever led to it for the sake of the kids, loves and as a result adopted you and your wife. After all the couples in the family compared to you and your wife, may not be that helpful or interesting after all. ;)
More as some type of afterthought, I wonder if you had "the pleasure" to meet a more extreme version of the lady. Maybe she was insecure, not knowing you, but having heard about your close relationship to the family. Which in her mind lead to the assumption that maybe she should be even more "pleasurable" then usual. ;)
******
Great story. The best stories are written by life. But this I would like to understand better.
She asked you, if you think she should? She asked you, if you thought it was a good idea if she would?
"She liked it when I talked about foreign policy, and once she startled me by asking if she would like joining the CIA."
Posted by: LeaNder | 15 June 2016 at 09:09 AM
Richard, please do not stop writing and publishing these passages. For me, they are true food for the mind and soul.
Posted by: BabelFish | 15 June 2016 at 09:18 AM
This is the world the Boomers made...
Posted by: The Sheep Look Up | 15 June 2016 at 09:39 AM
Richard Sale:
I find you aunt not too unsympathetic. The bloom of youth has long left her, and with her ability to play & act the "Woman Game of Playing with Men" in which she likely had indulged herself from, say, age 15 to age 35 (or possibly age 45 with a ton of help and assistance from artificial enhancements.)
She is now the proverbial Siberia, every one knows where she is, no one wants to go there. She is left with trinkets and toys to play which can, in no ways, substitute for what Life had shorn from her. And in the absence of her own man - to which you have alluded - she is left with seeking attention however and wherever she can, in order to fill that emptiness that can never be filled.
This is the lot of more women that you might think.
And to compare her to an un-licked young woman is to compare a rose in her bloom with a dried-up and crushed peony
Posted by: Babak Makkinejad | 15 June 2016 at 10:34 AM
Along the way we have lost the ability to appreciate what is in front of us. I love the picture linked below, and I remind myself to always be that person who lives in the experience, and captures those moments not through a badly taken picture but by memory.
http://static.boredpanda.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2015/10/senior-woman-living-in-moment-no-smartphone-celebrities-movie-premiere-black-mass-5.jpg
Posted by: Erika | 15 June 2016 at 10:51 AM
I know some people who are rather that way.
They're prosperous people and take vacations in various places, some foreign.
Anyhow, they have a collection of coffee table books they've had made up about these adventures and have them on display in their living room...
"The Griswalds in Tunisia", "The Griswalds on safari", etc.
I had never known people to do this and was somewhat nonplused when I saw it.
I've since learned there are companies that make these things to order, "Shutterfly"being one that caters to this sort of solipsism.
In times past of course folks would joke about being invited to people's houses and subjected to slide shows...
Posted by: A Pols | 15 June 2016 at 11:38 AM
Dear Mr. Sale,
I always look with anticipation for your latest posts. Smart, insightful and entertaining, I often go back to some of my favorites and re-read. Often more than once.
I hope you consider collecting your essays and publishing them.
Thanks very much!
Jack
Posted by: Jack Nix | 15 June 2016 at 11:57 AM
And Boomers were 'made' by the parents of the 'greatest generation......'
Posted by: jonst | 15 June 2016 at 01:23 PM
You're of course entitled to your stereotypes. Just as I am to mine.
Neither of us knows why the aunt's husband is not present. Richard, does not tell us, as far as I recall. But yes, he is both present (verbally abused) and absent (physically), in fact. ... Sickening situation to be thrown in without the least chance to judge for yourself.
I vaguely agree, Carol, in the story we are given, serves as something like an outer foil for the aunt. She could end up there.
http://literarydevices.net/foil/
But whatever parallel traits, attention seeking in the middle of the night. (Troubles at home?) "Shrewd" and "manipulative" plus "a shade ruthless". (Juvenile revenge for the troubles she had to endure? Without the necessary experience to deal with it?) Divorces don't happen over night. They have an aura. And observer is a really bad position for a kid/juvenile. ...
Full discovery: My mother up to recently pondered to have a flat of her own, never mind, this started at twelve for me.
In other words, I do not see "Woman Game of Playing with Men", like something of an recurring loop, an inescapable female destiny, ahead for Carol. She may fail to find some that fits. Maybe she divorces twice, before she feels it works? Maybe she prefers to stay alone after a couple of bad experiences. So what? On the surface she seems to have decided against the dependency your game above suggests.
Posted by: LeaNder | 15 June 2016 at 02:08 PM
In Prado, there are two pictures by Goya: one is "La maja desnuda", which is depicting a delicious young woman and another which is the portrait of an old woman.
The tourists, make or female, always crowd and gawk at Majia while none looks at the old lady.
Everyone like young attractive women; without a doubt, for their promises of fertility and beauty. No one wants to go to Siberia.
Posted by: Babak Makkinejad | 15 June 2016 at 04:32 PM
You were not very generous to the irritating aunt. There are lots of people who are alone, and who want to talk. one should give them some time, before moving on.
Posted by: Laguerre | 15 June 2016 at 05:18 PM
The Sheep Look Up
Yeah. What jonst said.
These are the Boomers the 'greatest generation' made.
(And speaking as a working class Boomer, working class Boomers didn't make anything. Upper class and Over class Boomers did that.)
Posted by: different clue | 15 June 2016 at 06:31 PM
Mr. Sale,
Thank you for this. Such people can certainly try one's patience to the breaking point with their manic - perhaps frantic - self-absorption. While it is difficult to grasp the thought while being thus bludgeoned, sometimes it would seem that they are more to be pitied than censured, as the old song has it. It is a lamentable backwash of the human condition, as it were.
Your story put me in mind of one of my favorite passages from Walt Whitman's "Song of Myself" (but "Myself" writ large, a mystical "Myself" rather than the one that tries the patience of strangers...) wherein he reflects on animals, and the contrast that they can present to humans.
I think I could turn and live with the animals,
They are so placid and self-contained.
I stand and look at them long, and long.
They do not sweat and whine about their own condition,
They do not lie awake in the dark and weep for their sins,
They do not make me sick discussing their duty to God;
Not one is dissatisfied not one is demented with the
mania of owning things;
Not one kneels to another, nor to his kind that lived
thousands of years ago.
Not one is respectable and unhappy over the whole earth.
It continues in a similar vein, and is worth seeking out. It is in section 32 of the whole of the poem "Song of Myself". The entire poem may be found here:
http://www.everypoet.com/archive/poetry/Walt_Whitman/walt_whitman_leaves_of_grass_book_03.htm
To conclude, and on a less exalted plane, there is this anecdote. My wife used to expatiate to me concerning her discontents with her superiors' behaviors and attitudes at her previous job. I took to telling her that she should be assiduous in learning from the negative examples that they provided so that when she herself was in an analogous position as a supervisor, that she would not inflict similar idiocies or insensitive behaviors upon those under her charge. And so it came to be.
Thank you again. Your insights never fail to instruct.
Posted by: JerseyJeffersonian | 15 June 2016 at 06:53 PM
Richard! Many thanks as always and apparently the U.S. is about to elect another "Boomer" President. Please could you write on a world shaped by BOOMER U.S. Presidents?
Posted by: William R. Cumming | 16 June 2016 at 06:08 AM
Mr. Sale,
Uses others as a soundingboard? My mother is one such. Always was, from my earliest memories onwards.
She is not of this culture. Though even in hers, she is an abberation. From what I could deduce, she felt burned early on & has had no genuine interest in "others" ever since. She can only relate to them through gossip & showing off. Might be tangential, but she is very "innocent". The type who leans towards wrestling being real, if you get my drift. Only uses the internet to watch tutorials & shop. Loves soaps. etc. (been told the south has many such...SOLIDARITY!)
In highschool, I called my best friends (insert vaginal reference) for complaining the way you did. What would happen was that she'd catch their parents on the phone & eat their ears for close an hour or more. Strictly her worries about me, her little local business concerns, etc. The parents would complain to their kids about how long she talked. Their kids would relay to me that she ran her mouth too long. I'd tell them to STFU and dared their (insert vaginal reference) parents to say it to her face.
None did. Was never brought up again. We're still lifelong bros (knock on wood!)
I appreciate your story. You may wrongly assume I implied you were being an (insert vaginal reference). Never. My gut reaction is that you are kind of innocent yourself & don't know how to process such people.
For whatever my experience is worth, what you describe are simple people of an older age. People who are dying out & will never be seen again. Cherish them. Pull their cheeks. Enjoy them as brave kids who ramble without any sense of self-awarness or maturity.
I am relatively young & overtly social. I also pay attention. Quietly.
I have never come across anyone my age who behaves this way. What I find is that our PRIVATE time is consumed with the work of showcasing our pointless lives (touching up pics, editing facebook posts, etc.). However in social situations, we are SAFE and non-offensive. It's like a FaceBook moderator's watching us...even while we're at a freaking remote cottage up north. We're all striving for edgy, but all that's left for us is to pout sexy, show cleavage, or flash some abs (find 2/3 on my instagram, 1702 followers - only like 9 I actually hang out with!)
Everyone is dreadfully scared of making the slightest social faux-pas...for fear of exactly what has occured here. Someone judging them in a private text to friends...or God forbid, A BLOG POST somewhere.
So, yeah. You'll soon get your wish Mr. Sale. And your sweet Carol will be at some graduation years from now...yelling out strange sound effects just to break the insincere tedium. "Crazy Aunt Carol!" they'll call her...
Crazy Aunt Carol,
Paul
Posted by: Paul Escobar | 16 June 2016 at 06:50 AM
Babak, first of all, to not go into Goya and from any superficial art historical reminiscences/rumors on the picture: I sure love Goya and Maya, but Maya isn't the origin of my love. ...
You know what? In a Belgian museum a picture seems to have called me from far away. It was tiny really. There would have been plenty of distraction around. You know what it was? It was a Rembrandt portrait of his mother on her deathbed.
The herd goes to what it is told it must see. Not sure if it changed, but in Paris the floor in front of Mona Lisa looked terrible trodden, no comparison to the floor anywhere else.
******
"Everyone like young attractive women; without a doubt, for their promises of fertility and beauty. No one wants to go to Siberia."
I agree concerning attractive women. Mentally I am bi-sexual. ;)
But for my interest to be raised beyond basic levels, there needs to be something else that impresses me.
The last time I fell in love with a woman. The special human being had at one point in time freed a couple of women that were kept as sex-slaves in Bosnia sometimes during the war.
She is married with a man from there and has two sons. Beyond having this wonderfully undecided freckled skin, and from my own perspective is a real beauty. She no doubt is to many beyond her husband. ;)
Conventional beauty is sometimes used as some type of trophy for exhibition, ask the wives. They usually aren't that happy.
Posted by: LeaNder | 16 June 2016 at 08:51 AM
Ah, Babak, what does it say about me that I looked (perhaps gawked) at the old lady for some time when my wife and it visited the Prado.
Posted by: BabelFish | 16 June 2016 at 09:46 AM
One more entry, one that I can speak of from experience. There is this thing lurking out there called Asperger's Syndrome. It frequently takes the form of someone who attempts to coral conversations and direct them to subjects they are interested in. I will say that self-centered folks may look/sound the same but are truly not. Those folks usually also act and judge based on that self-centered view of life.
It usually is accompanied by other things on the syndrome spectrum that includes Obsessive/Compulsive Disorder, Tourette Syndrome and even non-traumatic epilepsy.
Posted by: BabelFish | 16 June 2016 at 09:51 AM
Mr. Sale,
Sir, I pray you've made a full recovery from your stroke.
Yours truly suffered from a "minor" one last year (just aged 3 years to 2 score).
Several visits to various depts in a hospital were of no avail as to what was causing me optical hell (i.e. double-vision).
An acupuncturist revealed that it was "a minor stroke caused by sleep depravation (due to insomnia) & serious food-poisoning".
What followed was a most painful session as human pin-cushion...
A warning to other readers my age & younger who are careless with matters of overall physical Health.
(Very tempted to address them "cretins"/[insert vaginal reference] due to ill habit, but for sake-of-politeness...)
RE: self-absorption
In these dark hours of your Republic, over-indulgence in narcissistic self-centeredness has IMHO transformed American hoi polloi into very selfish individuals who fail to realize that those who hold different perspectives are also their fellow Americans...
A Jewish associate (a bloke from NYC) early this year told me of his fears that the country may eventually be embroiled in civil war...
Recent events have only proven him prescient.
Sanity seems elusive what with the wild passions that have taken hold of US populace.
I never would have imagined that the chaos of the "Arab spring" would reach your shores, 'playing out' in a prelude of a 21st. c. War-between-the-States (made worse with Facebook, Twitter, "smart"phones & what not).
One can understand why President Xi Jinping is wary of such 'media tools'.
"A house divided cannot stand..."
Posted by: YT | 16 June 2016 at 12:34 PM
Hmm Asperger. A different defense then Babak's and Paul's of the aunt? ;)
Ok, why not:
It may well be the reader is left with questions on his mind, like:
Random pick, Aspergian?: why didn't you force her into your favorite topic. And every time she tries to escape, force her back in. ...
Any other tool in the box short of bodily harm:
Please, don't take this personally. But I deeply dislike this new selfie, selfie with family and friends attitude. I prefer to met people directly. ... Your husband couldn't come? How is he? What is he doing now?
Freud was a master from my rather limited perspective as narrator. He seems to have been aware of the possible question mark's on the minds of his reader, not all, but some of them. ... At least that is how I experienced some of his books.
Posted by: LeaNder | 16 June 2016 at 01:36 PM
LeaNder,
Well, my spouse says that I have had my polite genes surgically removed. What I have said in the past is "excuse me but you are being inappropriate". I have found it has a remarkable way of immediately shutting of the tsunami of unwanted TMI. Selfishly, I feel if someone is going to be made uncomfortable, it might as well be the other person, who was bombarding we with an 'all about me' conversation.
And, I have had to coach someone close to me, who has Asperger's, on how it feels to be at the receiving end of the cascade of socially awkward and unwanted conversations.
Posted by: BabelFish | 16 June 2016 at 05:36 PM
Thanks, BabelFish, for responding
On the other hand you invited the babbler, the the Me, Me, Me - Narcissist, now you have to endure her, or scroll on. ;)
"excuse me but you are being inappropriate"
Not such a bad idea, seems my mind wandered in a similar direction. But obviously Richard leads us there. The well placed single sentence paragraph is ingenious. I would prefer "pure genius", since my "Millennial" (hat tip to Fred) niece uses 'genial' (in German) all the time in German. ... ;)
Concerning your wife, she choose you. Didn't she? And she surely took a good look at who you are, before she married you. ... Besides: Sometimes we need a balancing factor. ... ;)
Looking back, I seem to have instinctively chosen extroverted loud girl friends, loudness-wise, like the aunt. Strictly I still somewhat dislike people that force the whole room, including me, to listen to their conversation. I never, ever book a seat on a train so if necessary I can escape. But then ALL of my best girl friends were just that, loud, either not-minding, but no doubt attention-seeking from my own preference perspective. Besides, they forced me right into the middle of the epicenter. I guess, that was the worst part of it.
It was a real challenge to be drawn into this unasked for center attention, I can tell you. Never mind, you don't have the slightest interest to raise you voice. Or speak up.
But this one took me by surprise. One day, she suddenly stood in front of my door in London and told me nothing more then: I am Manu (Manuela).
In hindsight she probably had a bi-polar type of problem.... High up in the sky's entertaining whole parties, and at the drop of a hat, gone withdrawn in her room, all down, heavily down. As if exhausted from her act. I found it hard to believe my eyes, when I found out the first time. But that was already back in Germany.
Now, when she was entertaining all the people around, drawing all the attention in the room on herself. She occasionally needed an exhibitionary object for the entertainment of the crowd. I thought, I would die on the spot, when she did it to me the first time I was used as object for collective entertainment. But you know what, I survived. And after a while, I joined the collective laughter. It was gone, this girl had a therapeutic effect on me, it feels. One can learn. There are different perspectives on matters.
Concerning your Aspergian* friend, I wish him well.
Beyond this: I found the book linked below in it's Swedish "title" revelatory, since: For quite some distance on my personal timeline, I deeply distrusted politeness as pure feigning, masks. ... I only really got what difference it makes, when I experienced it in one of my bosses. The way he did it, wasn't a pure mask. It was respect.
And compared to earlier politeness, or whatever type of mask, he wasn't exploitative. Manu, exploited me heavily, whenever she lost track on timelines in her study. ... But it was also highly interesting to study her and her family.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Presentation_of_Self_in_Everyday_Life>Erwin Goffman, The self and the masks - A study of everyday-life drama.
* ... well, got long enough anyway.
Thanks, BabelFish, for responding
On the other hand you invited the babbler, the the Me, Me, Me - Narcissist, now you have to endure her, or scroll on. ;)
"excuse me but you are being inappropriate"
Not such a bad idea, seems my mind wandered in a similar direction. But obviously Richard leads us there. The well placed single sentence paragraph is ingenious. I would prefer "pure genius", since my Millennial (hat tip to Fred) niece uses "genial" all the time in German. ;)
Concerning your wife, she choose you. Didn't she? And she surely took a good look at who you are, before she married you. ... Sometimes we need a balancing factor. ... ;)
Looking back, I seem to have instinctively chosen extroverted loud girl friends, like the aunt. Strictly I still somewhat dislike people that force the whole room, including me, to listen to their conversation. But then some of my best girl friends were doing just that, not only that, the pulled me right into the middle of the epicenter.
It was a real challenge to be drawn into this unasked for center attention.
But this one took me by surprise. One day, she suddenly stood in front of my door in London and told me nothing more then: I am Manu (Manuela).
In hindsight she probably had a bi-polar type of problem.... High up in the sky's entertaining whole parties, and at the drop of a hat, gone withdrawn in her room, all down, heavily down. As if exhausted from her act. I found it hard to believe my eyes, when I found out the first time.
Now, when she was entertaining all the people around, drawing all the attention in the room on herself. She occasionally needed an exhibitionary object for the entertainment of the crowd. I thought, I would die on the spot, when she did it to me the first time, as the object for collective entertainment. But you know what, I survived. And after a while I joined the collective laughter. It was gone, this girl had a therapeutic effect on me, it feels.
Concerning your Aspergian* friend, I wish him well.
Beyond this: I found the book linked below in it's Swedish "title" revelatory, since: For quite some distance on my personal timeline, I deeply distrusted politeness as pure feigning, masks. I only really got what difference it makes when I experienced it in one of my bosses. The way he did it wasn't a pure mask. It was respect.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Presentation_of_Self_in_Everyday_Life>Erwin Goffman, The self and the masks - A study of everyday-life drama.
* ... well, got long enough anyway.
Thanks, BabelFish, for responding, you invited the babbler in me-The Me, Me, Me - Narcist-now you have to endure her, or scroll on.
"excuse me but you are being inappropriate"
Not such a bad idea, seems my mind wandered in a similar direction. But obviously Richard leads us there. The well placed single sentence paragraph is ingenious. I would prefer "pure genius", since my Millenial niece uses "genial" all the time in German. But I am too lazy to reflect, if it really works in English. ;)
Concerning your wife, she choose you. Didn't she? And she surely realized who you are, before she married you. ... Sometimes we need a balancing factor.;)
Looking back, I seem to have instinctively chosen extroverted loud girl friends. Strictly I still somewhat dislike people that force the whole room, including me, to listen to their conversation. But then some of my best girl friends were doing just that, even worse they pulled me right into the middle of the epicenter.
Considering that, it's a real challenge to be drawn into the center attention, by your dialog partner. Whose part of the conversation can probably be overheard in the most remote corner of the place.
One had quite a few attractive characteristic, since different.
In hindsight she probably had a bi-polar type of problem.... High up in the sky's entertaining whole parties, and at the drop of a hat, gone withdrawn in her room, all down, heavily down. As if exhausted from her act. I found it hard to believe my eyes, when I found out the first time.
Now, when she was entertaining all the people around, drawing all the attention in the room on herself. She needed an object for the entertainment of the crowd. I thought, I would die on the spot when she did it to me. Pulling me right into the center as the object of ridicule. But you know what, I survived. And after a while I joined the collective laughter. It was gone, this girl had a therapeutic effect on me, it feels.
Concerning your Aspergian friend, I wish him well.
Beyond this: I found the book linked below in it's Swedish title revelatory, for quite some distance on my personal time-arrow. I distrusted politeness as pure feigning, masks. It also felt freeing to be honest, straight, direct. I only really got a different perspective, when I experienced it, what a difference it can make in one of my bosses. He somehow wasn't masquerading. It was respect.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Presentation_of_Self_in_Everyday_Life>Erwin Goffman, The self and the masks - A study of everyday-life drama.
Posted by: LeaNder | 17 June 2016 at 09:15 AM
Ok, I tried to get it short, didn't help much. Even doubled it, by shifting to typepad for the occasion and then pasting it twice. Now I managed to make myself a real attention seeking nuisance.
Just like the aunt? Well, Babak, explained it above. That's the fate of the elder faded and shriveled earlier blooms. ;)
And I know, it's not of the least interest for anyone.
take care, Babelfish, and the very, very best to you and your wife.
Posted by: LeaNder | 17 June 2016 at 11:01 AM
to pick up on YT's comment.
Richard, I hope you and your wife are well.
I really liked this story. It may be the type of story people can connect one way or another to their own experiences.
Posted by: LeaNder | 17 June 2016 at 11:12 AM
LeaNder,
Thank you for the link. And, I only scrolled on when I got to the duplicate portion of your post. ;-)
And, the Aspergian, who has other difficulties, is doing well. He likes to engage people in small conversations and is exceedingly polite, perhaps almost to a fault. His father is glad of his progress.
And, I just read your coda as I was typing this. I just can not see you as the aunt!
Posted by: BabelFish | 17 June 2016 at 07:28 PM